Recently, I wrote a post tiled “The Pull”, and as I was nearing the cursor towards the publish button, I decided against posting it. It was an unnecessary post to share with the world, but was good for me to write as it accomplished some good introspective work. To summarize this post is difficult to do, but basically it was about my self-exploration to finding my soul within me.
Anyways, within this post I declared the need I feel to stop trying to find happiness through buying things, and decided to go on a shopping hiatus. That lasted all about one week, but in a way, is still in effect. This is confusing. What I’m trying to say is that as opposed to buying unnecessary things for comfort (which is really what this goal was aimed at), I purchased some things that I thought were good for the kid inside of me.
In even simpler terms, I dropped $200 on Playmobil.
Playmobil was something that didn’t get introduced to me until I met James, but ever since I’ve thought it was the most wonderful toy a kid could ask for. I’m personally in love with the Playmobil Country themes, because somewhere inside me there’s a girl who always wanted to live on a farm. Playmobil is constantly cycling through products, and for some reason I wanted to see what was being phased out and what was coming in. To my alarm, I noticed the Playmobil farm set was being phased out, and I still didn’t have a tractor or a farmhouse! This lead to a desperate search for these items to buy before they are gone forever. I found the tractor without much problem, but the farmhouse was being quite difficult. Many websites advertised it on the Google, but all were out of stock. I was able to find some through other sellers on Amazon, but to my increasing despair, they were $150+ each. After calling the Playmobil expert (Mama Peg), I was lead to a store in Canada that still had the item in stock, and for not that expensive (like $40 US dollars). So, I quickly jumped into action and bought my farmhouse (update: well, about a week later I received an email from the store saying that they didn’t have the product, sooo I ended up buying it off of Ebay for a somewhat still reasonable but more expensive price), and then 4 websites later bought the rest of the farm set that was lacking from my collection. Oh, and also the Playmobil vet clinic collection. Because why not.
Now, if you know me, this is probably seeming pretty hypocritical. I can be so tight with money that I have been known to get mad at James for buying himself a burrito for lunch. I’m constantly talking about the darned budget and calculating what we will be spending and earning 3 months out. I can’t tell you why I threw everything out the window for some toys, but I kind of just snapped and went shopper crazy. Maybe it’s because I’ve been repressing that side of me for so long that I just went for it. Maybe it was the fear of never getting my farmhouse that drove me to drop those pretty pennies. Personally, I think it was just that little voice inside of me saying, “Go on! It will be good for you!” Plus thinking the later allows me to feel like I’m still an invincible shopper not likely to fold to the manipulations of the system (2 points for my ego).
All of these new toys are just the newest editions to a long list of things I’m doing for personal growth and enjoyment. As I mentioned in the invisible blog post, the following are some things I’ve been looking forward to working on as a way to focus my energy internally rather than externally:
-Learn to knit more complex things than a dishcloth (hopefully eventually clothes!)
-Crochet some pretty shawls that I’ve had on a list of things to make for a few years now
-Bake some muffins and scones to keep in the freezer for breakfasts
-Try cooking with more foods like avocados (because I think they’re delicious) and white beans (also yummy)
-Really, I want to continue my pursuit to break away from traditional Indiana cooking (even though it’s delicious)
-Read some books such as the Anne of Green Gables series, some books by Richard Feynman (I’ve heard they’re hilarious), The Time Traveler’s Wife, and the book Hyperbole and a Half (Another one I heard was a great, light read)
-Draw more, paint more, color more, make more
It is amazing how actually accomplishing things makes you feel. Instead of just binge watching Netflix and spending all of my spare time on Facebook, I’ve worked on this list and have seen a real improvement in my overall morale towards life. I’ve mostly been drawing, as that is what I’m having the most success with at the moment. As far as the books go, I have read Hyperbole and a Half. It’s a really short read and only took a few hours to start and finish. It made me laugh soooo hard, and I would recommend it to everyone if it weren’t riddled with some f-bombs. (Also, on the topic of books, I mentioned in the still invisible blog post that I read Stargirl and Love, Stargirl; these books are also fantastic and I recommend them to everyone as well).
However, I can’t spend all of my time stimulating the creative side of my brain to fuel my soul, so I’ve also been working on other things which still fuel my soul, but to a lesser degree. Some less artistic/impressive things I’ve accomplished:
-Finally learned how to cut the meat off of a bone-in lamb loin (you’d be surprised how long this has been duping me)
-Washed the sheets on our bed (I heard on the radio that girls wash their sheets 26x/year and boys wash them 4x/year… I decided it’s time to be more like the girls in 2016)
-Booked a ski trip for James and I to Vermont (weeeeeeeeee!)
-Got over a cold that lasted for 2+ weeks (yes, there was greenish-yellow snot at one point)
-Watered all of my plants (they were verrrrry thirsty)
You may be thinking, “pfff, why do I care about any of this because it’s so mundane and boring?” Well here’s why-you might just learn something for it!
-If you are having troubles figuring out how to carve some meat, you should Google it because it’s easy to learn.
-If you haven’t washed your sheets in the last 2 months, you should probably do that because I also heard how gross they can get on the radio.
-If you haven’t taken some time away from your normal life, you should totally think about booking a trip to Vermont, or anywhere else for that matter, even if it’s only for a weekend.
-If you are starting to feel a cold coming on TAKE YOUR VITAMIN C NOW BECAUSE IT CAN DRAG ON FOR A LONG TIME (I wish future me would have told past me this).
-If you have any plants (or living things for that matter) you should probably water them because they need to drink in the winter too.
I’m running out of stuff to say. I suppose that’s a good thing. I have an hour until my next meeting and am only monitoring a reaction today, so I guess I’ll go back to drawing:) Shhhh, don’t tell my boss. Nah, go ahead he won’t care. But maybe don’t just in case.